Just wanted to say some amazing news!  I've just been doing a little poking around on some other people's blogs and wanted to recommend some realy fun Christian entertainment for kids (which I must say I, as a college student, find amazing as well!).  Phil Vischer, the creator of Veggie Tales, with which I am obsessed, has been doing some new stuff that I've been following for a while and I thought it would be a good time to put in a shameless plug for it here!  

The first amazing news is that his new website, JellyTelly, is partnering with Focus on the Family my other favorite thing in the world, to bring kids hilarious, Christian entertainment and education ONLINE, click on the link above to see it!  It's so much fun and in a world where kids consume so much media on a daily basis, which you can hear Phil Vischer explain more eloquently here, we really need people who are willing to stand up and speak the truth in loving, entertaining ways that will shape kids as they grow in the way that Focus on the Family and others did when I was growing up through things like Adventures in Odyssey .  

I'm so thankful for how that shaped me and I feel passionate about doing that for kids today through my writing and the creativity God has given me.  That's why I'm so enthralled with what Phil Vischer is doing these days, so keep your eyes open!  Also, check out this website http://www.tyndale.com/products/for what Phil Vischer and Tyndale House are doing with the Jelly Telly characters, telling their way through the Bible!  Awesome!  Amen. 

Simply Trusting

the winding and uncertain road of the future!

Well I'm back, and no snide comments (though I don't know who'd make them, I don't believe I had many readers yet :D) about making promises I can't keep.  It's true, my promises to myself, New Years' Resolutions and all that, don't do so great, and that promise back in August to have a weekly feature didn't turn out so great.  I apologize, but, at the risk of making excuses, I had no idea what the Fall semester would be.  I had a rough time with classes, it was definitely my toughest semester yet, but it is over and I can truthfully say that I'm thankful for what the perseverance through the semester has taught me.  I know that God did what happened this semester, not me, and I decided a while back that there's something really awesome (however little it may seem at the time) about being forced by circumstances to trust God completely with something you absolutely can't handle.  

That's easy to say about last semester and other things in the past, but the future I'm not always so sure about.  I was reading Matthew 4 today.  Have you ever noticed how Peter and Andrew and James and John just hopped up and followed when Jesus said to go?  You know they didn't feel full, simple trust.  Not yet.  Instead it seems like when I went to camp between my sophomore and junior years.  They offered me the job of food service assistant, when the only cooking I'd ever done was with a recipe card and my mom in the other room.  They wanted me to come be in charge of an entire kitchen feeding about 150 people a week, and my supervisor was on the other side of camp, cooking in her own kitchen.  I couldn't fathom why God would call me to such a job for which I was so ludicrously unqualified, and yet He did.  And I knew He did.  So I went.  And so did these guys.  In fact it says "they immediately followed Him, leaving the boat and their father behind" of James and John in verse 22.  

I want that kind of faith.  And you might tell me, if you were here, that I have it, because I went to camp that time.  But I don't know.  That camp was for one summer.  I knew I'd soon be home, going to school as usual, coming home on weekends, spending time with my family, hanging out with my friends.  Life would be good.  But right now the "Let's go" God is offering is a little less definite.  Graduation is looming and considerations for the rest of my life, and God's plan for it, are all on the horizon.  And as I sit at my grandparents' kitchen table with the winter sun going down and the room getting dusky, I feel like the future has this same sort of haze.  And yet my time with God today told me to leave my parents and all the familiar of the (figurative) family boat and fish nets and follow.  Can I hop up readily even when I don't feel sure?  Is it ok to start following Jesus in a situation even when you're not entirely positive that your confidence is ultimately settled?  I'm beginning to think so for two good reasons.  The first is that there's no way I can believe these four Galilean fishermen had enough ready-made faith to be sure that this situation was going to turn out well.  I've seen more of Jesus' work in my life that they had at that point, so I have more reason to know that following God is a safe place to be.

More than that, though, my second reason for thinking this is ok is that God takes and redeems imperfections.  As I've started off on reading Matthew, I read through the genealogy and my Bible's notes on it.  As I'd heard from Francine River's Lineage of Grace series, the women mentioned there, in addition, in some cases, to their husbands, did not have stellar reputations.  They were foreigners, reputed to have had children out of wedlock, or guilty of some type of sexual sin.  I know God has grace, but from my perfectionist self to God's perfection, it seems that if I were going to build the lineage of my one and only Son on earth, I'd pick really good people.  But God picked some bad people and then redeemed them through circumstances.  And if He could do that, He can take my imperfect trust and fear of the future and make it something utterly precious and beautiful.  What an awesome thought.  With that idea, I'm ready to stop looking at the details of the future that may scare me and start looking at the shoulders of my Shepherd as the bob up and down in the twilight as we walk over a bumpy patch in the road.  Sheep follow the Shepherd's voice and steps, rather than being prodded forward with a cattle prod from behind, and I won't hold myself back from that until I have perfect faith and stop fearing God's future for me.  If I wait for that, I may never move anywhere at all.

AMEN.